My Beloved Merlin has Crossed Over to the Spiritual Realm

12/22/11 1:07 PM


Merlin, Feb. 2011

My sweet, beloved cat Merlin crossed over to the spiritual realm yesterday.

Merlin had only shown signs of being sick over the past few weeks. He was about 13. He had slowed down somewhat in the past year or so. But, all in all, he was his big, handsome, adorable self. And then two days ago, an ultrasound showed cancer in several organs. We took him home that night. Yesterday, he was very clear in communicating that he was ready to leave his body and our vet came to our home to assist him. Merlin passed easily and peacefully, with dignity, and in a ceremonial way that was honoring of him.  

Merlin was a Buddah; a Zen kitty; a Yogi master; calm, peaceful, serene. He adored being a cat; he loved being in his body and he was a skilled and avid hunter. Merlin would sometimes position his body in the most unusual cat-yoga positions and ‘meditate’. He was gentle, kind, patient and loving to everyone. On the rare occassion when someone who was not a ‘cat person’ would visit, they fell in love with Merlin. Everyone loved Merlin. He was the embodiment of grace and compassion; a true teacher in every sense of the word. I have many stories and teachings from Merlin that I will write about in the coming weeks and months to share his medicine and wisdom with you.

For today, I share some of my favorite photos of Merlin and my gratitude for the opportunity to have been blessed to live with such an enlightened being for 12 years. Amidst my tears and sadness are moments of tremendous joy. Merlin had a great life, he is no longer in pain, and his spirit is free now. I miss his physical form and I also rejoice in knowing that we are connected for eternity.

For decades I have celebrated Winter Solstice as the day of the return of the light. Merlin passing on Solstice Eve is a reminder to honor the richness and fullness of the dark;  this too is sacred and powerful.

Many of you already know that I have lost three beloved animal companions in the past year and a half. My loyal and loving dog Syra with her velvet ears crossed over in April 2010, my shaman black panther kitty Sig crossed in August 2010, and now my Buddah-belly Merlin. This is the first time in many, many decades that I do not have an animal companion in my life, on the physical plane. I can’t imagine my life without animals. I know that I will have animal companions again very soon. In this moment, however, the void feels overwhelming at times. I am doing my best to trust that this is an opportunity to be in the void and still feel connected to the Divine. I will live today one heartbeat at a time and know and trust that the next animal companion for me is coming. I will do my best to keep my heart open and feel my grief as well.

This is not the way I planned to celebrate Winter Solstice this year. Yet, it is what it is. And so, I have the opportunity to let go of attachments today and trust that all is happening for the highest and best. 

Every day is a day of thanks-giving. Every day is an opportunity to live in ceremony. With my heart both heavy with grief and full of joy at the same time, I am grateful.

I wish you all many blessings for a loving and joyous Winter Solstice and Holiday.

Merlin doing kitty yoga

Merlin in the Light, Winter Solstice 2009

Merlin eating shrimp on Winter Solstice 2010

Merlin hanging out

Me & Merlin, 2010, a great shot of his exquisite whiskers

Beautiful, Sweet, Handsome Merlin

24 Comments on “My Beloved Merlin has Crossed Over to the Spiritual Realm”

  1. Tabitha Says:

    Rain, I’m so sorry to hear of his crossing… *big hugs* you’re a bigger person then I to have such a positive outlook! I hope when Gaebriel’s time comes that I will be half as strong as you seem to be… much love to you! If you need anything, you know where I am…

    P.s. Chianti says surely her ears aren’t as velvet-like as Syra’s, but you are more then welcome to snuggle them! We would drive for that 😉

    Again, much love, Tabitha and crew

  2. Rain Says:

    Thank you so much… I know you understand… and I thank you for all of your healing energy and loving thoughts over these past few weeks. A great big hug to cutie Chianti, who holds a special spot in my heart cuz she reminds me of my Syra.
    Love to you all,

  3. Karen Says:

    Oh Rain, I am so, so sorry to hear about sweet Merlin. You sound so balanced. Sending you big hugs and deep love.

  4. Rain Says:

    Thank you Karen… I’ve certainly had my moments of sobbing… and we’ve also had some laughs today too, remembering funny things Merlin has done and lots of smiles of joy talking about his sweet way of being. It’s a mix of joy and pain. Hugs right back, dear friend.

  5. Tiara Says:

    Oh, sweet Rain, I am so sorry to hear this! Merlin’s gentle, buddah way was a beautiful gift to us all, I’ll never forget the wisdom he shared with me during the time we communicated in the class this past spring. I’m so thankful for Merlin’s willingness to teach us and so grateful to you for sharing him with us all!

    May the stillness of this winter season give you comfort as you pass through this night, holding space for you to process the passing those who have taught you so much and to nurture yourself in this moment. Soon the light of a new day will come, and with it new companions to walk with you on this physical plane. We are sending you so much love! Please let me know if there is anything I can do to support you in this transition.

    <3 Tiara

  6. Rain Says:

    Thank you so much Tiara… Merlin LOVED participating in the workshop last spring… he’s always been such a patient, gentle teacher. And thank you for your sweet and thoughtful message of love and encouragement. It’s touched me deeply. Love and hugs to you all!

  7. Rain Says:


    The following comments to the blog post were also received today:

    From Tina: I’m so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is. I know you too well. One day the right animal will come your way. Thank you for that wonderful tribute to Merlin. You have a way with words.

    From Kathryn: Oh my dear Rain, my heart cries with you.
    Sending you much love.

    From Marta: Sweet Rain! I can’t picture you without an animal companion. I am sure all your spirit friends are with you to console you. Merlin looks a lot like my Misu.

    From Barb: oh honey, I am so sad for you. We send our deepest sympathy to you & know how very hard this must be for you. We are keeping you close in our hearts. Love to you & Mitchell.

    From Forrest: GO FOR IT MERLIN!!!Pass through the Star Gate and join in Communion as you join in the realm of the GREAT BEYOND, perhaps the more real and full, compared to this dimension which you and Rain were so fortunate to have shared through so many journeys of Heart and SOUL in companionship. Very auspicious to have him make his way, on his way, as the darkness and shadow shifts toward the LIGHT Holding LIGHT, SHADOW, LOVE and BLESSINGS for YOU and MERLIN at this time

  8. Rain Says:

    Several more comments received below to this blog post:

    From Breah: Ah, Rain…I am so sorry. Dear sweet so very beautiful Merlin. I read through your writing of his passing. Thank you for sharing that and know you are well loved and respected by so many, including me, of course.

    From Molly & Jeff: Oh Rain, I am so sorry. It seems so fitting that he would cross over on a day celebrating the dark beauty of a Winter Solstice. All the mystical beauty a cat embodies. I share in your pain and I always remember what you told me that Rocking Bear said about losing your beloved companion. I know you have probably thought of that but I know how much those words mean to me. I am so glad that Mitchell got to know him if only for a short time. I will always be grateful to Merlin as well and his assistance in our reikis. Big hugs and lots of Love to you

    From Tori: so sorry about your loss, but I know your love will live forever, he was lucky to have you!

    From Keith: I really had hoped to give Merlin one more belly rub before he left, but it wasn’t meant to be. He will be missed by everyone who ever met him. You and Mitchell will be in my thoughts.

    From Sandy: … and I had there pleasure of knowing him!!!!!!! You sound good. Blessings to you wonderful rain!!!

    From Amy: I am sorry Rain. I know this is hard on your heart. Take good care

    From Maggie: I am sorry and touched by the loss of your dear companion Merlin. When my sweet Colleen passed in to Spirit that was the first time in 27 years I had not had an animal companion and was very sad . I knew about the spiritual aspects and connecting with her in that way but the loss of her physical presence was felt very deeply. I know you will find a new companion when you are ready (or they will find you). Anyways I wanted to send loving thoughts and gratitude to you and Merlin in this new journey together.

  9. Rain Says:

    I continue to receive so many thoughtful and heartfelt emails and comments. Thank you all so much for your kindness and compassion. Here are a few more comments to share:

    From Kay: Dear Rain, Wish I had met Merlin in that his picture says it all. He had the best of this world with you and he did not need anything else. Watch for his sign in that he is going to send you something that will fill your heart.

    From Terri: Rain, I’m sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing about your beloved journey with Merlin. Much Love

    From Bobbie: Rain: Blessings to you and Merlin and the many animals in our lives – past and present. Thanks for you and all your information, love

    From Avalon: I am so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful cat he was! With incredibly wondrous & knowing eyes.

    From Suzanne: Dearest, dearest Rain, My deepest, most sincere sympathies for your loss. I, too, adored Merlin! He was a magnificent feline in every sense of the word. He will be missed and I will hold you in my thoughts and send you loving, warm energies. Thank you, Merlin, for blessing us with your magnificence. He was truly a spectacular creature.

    From Gail: Dear Rain, I am so sorry for your loss. I have many fond memories of Merlin. I especially remember how beautiful, sweet and serene he was and how much he loved having his “Buddha belly” rubbed. I hope you find some comfort in knowing that he thoroughly enjoyed his physical life and was ready for his transition back to the spiritual realm. What a gift he gave you by communicating this to you and by choosing such a meaningful time to transition. I have a feeling his teaching will go on and I know his love will. Please know I am holding you in my thoughts and in my heart.

  10. Rain Says:

    Here’s another beautiful comment:
    From Linda: Rain, I “liked” this when I read it and it posted on my wall, to which several people responded, including an animal-loving friend in British Columbia who was very touched. I’m holding you in my heart, as I know this place of serial losses too well, but not the place of being without any animals at all. That feels very hard to me. I hope your next animal companion(s) is/are already on the way, and that your heart is broken open, to even more love (as in one of the new Dog Pearls). Love you, Rain

  11. Sophia Says:

    Dear Rain,
    My love and hugs to you and to the blessed Merlin. Thank you for sharing so deeply. I am happy to know that you had a beautiful teacher in Merlin with you for many years.
    Many blessings and hugs,

  12. Rain Says:

    Thank you so much Sophia for your thoughtful and heartfelt message. Merlin was very special; he still is. I know you understand the many special ways that cats are teachers in our lives.
    Many blessings and hugs to you too,

  13. Cheri Says:

    I just got your newsletter and read this. I am so sorry you have lost your sweet Merline. I am sure it is hard to not have any animals in your life right now but I know the time will come soon for the next one to be part of your life. Sending loving energy to you.

  14. Rain Says:

    Thank you for your thoughtful post, Cheri, and for the good work you do with rescuing cats.
    Wishing you many blessings,

  15. Sally Carter Says:

    Dear Rain,
    I was sad to hear of the passing of your beloved Merlin. What a beautiful soulful cat!I am sure he will be with you in so many ways through time.

    We lost our precious Iggy on 10/11/11,during the full moon. The pain of the loss seemed unbearable. We did assist him in his passing, a decision not arrived at easily. The grief can still overwhelm us. Your reading helped immeasureably.

    We chose to adopt two cats, on 1/12/12, which for me, seemed too soon. We searched our hearts during the fullmoon time and after seeing multiple rainbows in the sky, and decided it was right.

    Thay both have long hair, one silvery grey, one smoky grey and white, brothers from different litters and pals!

    Blessings to you during this mourning time. Love Sally and Gene

  16. Rain Says:

    Oh Sally,
    I am so sorry to hear about Iggy; I know how very special he was to you; he certainly had a wonderful life being adored by you.
    Congratulations on adopting the two new brothers; I’m sure they are happy to be with you in such a loving home.
    Thank you for your kind words about Merlin; he was/is soulful for sure. I am open to more animal companions coming into my life and trust that all will work out perfectly with that, and in perfect timing.
    Wishing you all much joy and love,

  17. Laurie Says:

    Dearest Rain…i have been so out of touch that i just found out about Merlin…there are no words to express my sadness at the physical loss of your beloved one…you know that he is with you always…and he can have as many mice as his heart desires…i am hugging you dear Rain…love…light…peace

  18. Rain Says:

    Dearest Laurie,
    Thank you so much… I smiled when reading the part about Merlin having as many mice as his heart desires. He sure loved to hunt. I appreciate your kindness and sweetness.
    Wishing you joy and many blessings.

  19. becca givens Says:

    Rain – I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your beloved Merlin. From your description, as well as from your posted photos – he indeed was a special spiritual being with charisma and handsomeness that appear boundless. Sending you many blessings during this time. Namaste ~~ becca

  20. Rain Says:

    Thank you so much for your thoughtfulness. Wishing you many blessings, Becca.

  21. Sandra Says:

    Hi Rain
    I’ve been so out of touch. So sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved Merlin. You are in my thoughts and prayers . Thank you for all that you do.
    Love and light

  22. Rain Says:

    Thank you, Sandra. Its great to hear from you. I wish you much love and light as well.

  23. Shelly Says:

    Hi Rain,
    I’m sorry, I just heard about Merlin crossing over. You are so lucky to have each other, in the past and for always. What a beautiful and special boy.

    Lots of love,

  24. Rain Says:

    Hi Shelly,
    Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful message. Merlin sure was beautiful and he continues to be so special in my life.

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